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This just in:Marie's liver tried attacking her brain!!! Her morbid insides are out of control! - ->JERRY! JERRY! JERRY!Its official.My life hates my life.

I taught the mirror how to kill itself

I'm tired and i am bored.Wow!And here i sit with a lifetime supply of blah feelings. I just finished making this personality quiz for my psychology class. Its quite humorous but not so accurate. Tomorrow is Thursday! These days just keep on subtracting. Nervous breakdowns are really fun.Right. . . a scream threatened to escape from my lips.

Pretzels? Pretzels anyone?

I've found myself becoming strongly attracted to guys who are like "ok so i have black hair. . . i think i'm going to put blonde streaks in it" and it turns out looking like a goldish blonde hard to explain color. Arggghh . .. it looks so extremely good i want to melt right now.Ok. Enough of that.This evening was very pleasant. Its always a blast when your hanging out with one of your best friends. Me and Rachel went to the mall and skipped around placing notes on peoples cars that said "you are the cause of the end of the world" and "you are special" (and on the back it said ED). We were both thrilled by our little plan of brightening lifes until later it rained (i hope they discovered the napkins before they got soaked). Then we crawled over to Steak and Shake and had a feast. Rachel tried to stab herself with a fork. I . . .um. .. tried telling her "no" after i took the pic. Hop. What a relief. Tonight reminded me of what its like to laugh.

Pain is most intense when it's gradual

These thoughts of mine are spinning around and around but what's the use when they are getting me absolutely nowhere? I have this huge weight on my shoulders that's caused by an insane amount of stress. This isn't easy to admit but i've always felt like i can't talk to anyone unless i have something really really important or interesting to say. The fear of rejection is controlling my life little by little. I know i'm missing out on so much. There have been far too many interesting people i have passed up in my life. Regrets are adding up like trash. Too many jars are filled up with tears of shame. I hate the fact that i'm overly sensitive to e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.Why does it seem like everyone is kicking back enjoying life while here i am running around like a crazy person trying to meet expectations. Depression is slowly drowning my confidence. It becomes absurd when you get to the point where you begin to admire other people so much that you ignore the good in yourself.Every day you must saySo, how do I feel about my life ?Anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesWhen will you accept yourself ?I am sick and I am dullAnd I am plainHow dearly I'd love to get carried awayOh, but dreams have a knack of just not coming trueAnd time is against me now...ohOh, who and what to blame ?Oh, anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesWhen will you accept yourself, for heaven's sake ?Anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesEvery day you must sayOh, how do I feel about the past ?Others conquered love - but I ranI sat in my room and I drew up a planOh, but plans can fall through (as so often they do)And time is against me now...And there's no-one left to blameOh, tell me when will you ...When will you accept your life ?(The one that you hate)For anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesEvery day you must sayOh, how do I feel about my shoes ?They make me awkward and plainHow dearly I would love to kick with the fray ...But I once had a dream (and it never came true)And time is against me now...Time is against me now...And there's no one but yourself to blameOh, anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesAnything is hard to find; for heaven's sake !Anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesWhen will you accept yourself ?When ?When ?When ?When ?-The Smiths-

Deadsy reminds me of all the crazy times with rachel

Everyone is so excited because its the new year and supposedly most convenient to "start over". New year resolutions are kinda meaningless to me for i'm constantly setting goals for myself throughout the year. This one day out of the year doesn't give me the thrilling motivation to improve myself by lets say mountain climbing or brutally defeat headless vampire chickens.NOWI think i will go out and scare myself by walking the dark streets with my cd player blasting. It's most chilling when you can't hear or see whats going on around you. I will only stop when my heart stops."She likes nice cars Invincible trends She bites the heads off Her mutual friends We dine at the table She sits at the end She likes big words And playing pretend" Ladies and Gentlemen i'd like to introduce: Taken on December of 2003: Mr. Shopping cart once lived a bright lifeBut it was taken away suddenly by a push and a kickR.I.P

KT's sister's kitten - atari !

Dead Poetic steals the moment

I want to see your eyesThe light, the tunnelI need to feel your love This fight, my struggleWhich hand should I cut off? My life in shamblesI’ll lose my life right hereBut what for, I’m coming homeAnd I will meet you . . .thereI’m heading nowhere fast I need your handsWhich breath will be my last? It’s gone, my pastLove with a broken heart I’m here aloneI’m getting taken away I hope you’re coming soonAnd I will meet you. . .thereGrab my hand and take me homeWill you be there to grab my hand and take me away?I want to see your eyes I need to feel your love Which hand should I cut off? !I’ll lose my life right here!